Post by Tambourine on Sept 15, 2013 21:21:26 GMT
I can't hold this in anymore. Within the short time ANR has been open, my life has spiraled out of control. I can't walk out of my room anymore without the tension from my father coming down on me like a herd of buffalo. My responsibilities in life have suddenly changed, and have gotten worse.
I can't handle the responsibilities in life now, and run ANR like it should be.
With this, I think you all deserve an explanation. My mother left me two years ago. I had known of this a year prior of her leaving. I have held in all my anger. My sadness. My hurt. It has all come tumbling out now. My dad is depressed and angry all the time, and my sister doesn't even want to be in this house anymore. My mom has hurt my family, and this realization has me spiraling out of control. I thought this was going to be short lived, but it's come back within the last week. You don't know how many times I have thought of killing myself over the stress in life right now.
I am taking an indefinite break. I don't know when I will be back. I won't be on Tambourine that often.
I am truly sorry for those I am letting down. But the drama, and chaos that is going on in FH and in RL, I can't bear no more. My medication I take isn't working now because of all the stress I am going through, and the depression of letting you all down. I can't communicate how greatly sorry I am.
I am leaving Ferretstar and Silent~Death with head-admin spots, since they know what has been going on, and have been more active than even me. They will know the plot, and I give them permission to change it, or make a new one. I'm just tired of logging on, and having nothing but whispers flood me. I can't take it.
I do love you all; I have no friends in life right now, and it kills me that I am so stressed out now to the point where I have to leave.
For the sake of the rp. I wish you all well.
I can't handle the responsibilities in life now, and run ANR like it should be.
With this, I think you all deserve an explanation. My mother left me two years ago. I had known of this a year prior of her leaving. I have held in all my anger. My sadness. My hurt. It has all come tumbling out now. My dad is depressed and angry all the time, and my sister doesn't even want to be in this house anymore. My mom has hurt my family, and this realization has me spiraling out of control. I thought this was going to be short lived, but it's come back within the last week. You don't know how many times I have thought of killing myself over the stress in life right now.
I am taking an indefinite break. I don't know when I will be back. I won't be on Tambourine that often.
I am truly sorry for those I am letting down. But the drama, and chaos that is going on in FH and in RL, I can't bear no more. My medication I take isn't working now because of all the stress I am going through, and the depression of letting you all down. I can't communicate how greatly sorry I am.
I am leaving Ferretstar and Silent~Death with head-admin spots, since they know what has been going on, and have been more active than even me. They will know the plot, and I give them permission to change it, or make a new one. I'm just tired of logging on, and having nothing but whispers flood me. I can't take it.
I do love you all; I have no friends in life right now, and it kills me that I am so stressed out now to the point where I have to leave.
For the sake of the rp. I wish you all well.
Love, Tambourine
